Wednesday, June 8, 2016

It's Ba-Na-Nas!

Life has truly been... bananas.

So many unpredictable things, as usual.  How to recap...? It's been two years since my last post!! :D

I followed my passion. Turned it into a profession. Got burned out.

I met a boy.  Pretty sure he came out from my dream.
Scared shitless of falling in love.  But it's unavoidable.  We are now engaged :).

I quit baking.  Dance intensely.  Work a new 8-5 job.

Some family troubles along the way.
Some personal obstacles.

You know, the typical life stuff.  I won't get into the details here :).

Fast forward to today.

Life continues going on the fast lane.  I work a day job, and decided to teach u-jam.  Again with the notion "I love it, why not go all in?".  It was really more of an impulsive decision tho...I didn't really think about what I was getting myself into.  Then about a month ago, I had to take a medical leave.  It's been a challenging time, it still is.  But I think it made our relationship stronger together.  Recovery is going slow.  The meds I had to take is so strong and there's no way telling how long it'll affect me physically. Some days are better than others.

Today is a better day.  I can't dance.  But I can bake.

After six months of no baking, I finally miss it again.

I thought I had lost it.
I wonder if I can still make croissants...?

Wednesday, June 4, 2014

a second chance

If you get to do it again, would your reaction change?  Would you behave any differently if you get a second chance in life?

- The only ways to learn life lessons is thru experience.
- Your attitude determines the outcome of all events.
- In the end, everything will always work out.

The question is… what's the point then?

I know that running away never solves anything.  Everything happens for a reason, right?

But how do you stay graceful at difficult moments when your patience is just being challenge on all directions?

How am I supposed to be happy and positive when I'm surrounded by negativities?  Things happened and I tried my best to react in the most calm manner.  But I do recognize bullshit when I see one. And it is agonizing when I feel the need to protect other people's feeling at the mercy of my own.  It gets exhausting.

And I do get tired.  Emotionally and physically.

I am still grateful though.  Grateful for the love I have in my life.  For friends and family who I know I can rely on.

Shame on you liars and haters.

If I get a second chance, I would still do the same thing.  It's just who I am and I can't be who I am not.

I am not a liar or a hater.

Life trials my character.  Questions my integrity.

"I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did,  but people will never forget how you made them feel." -Maya Angelou.