Saturday, December 1, 2007

time to clean up!

boy, i haven't updated this blog for a while!

most of the time, i have things that i wanted to write, but never got to finish writing them. so i have plenty of posts that are still in "draft" mode. hahaha hopefully this one made it to the published mode. hehehe

anyway.. hubby & i have been living in this apartment for probably almost 6 months. even so, we both still feel like this place is not "home". it's just a place to live temporarily. to me, the main reason why i can't make this place feels like home is because the place is so friggin' cluttered!! i'm a neat freak (not at work tho! you can hardly see the surface of my desk at work ^_^). but when i'm at home, i need everything to be organize. i'm like monica from friends. the apartment where we lived before was bigger and had more storage space. the one we're living on right now is the opposite. as the results, there are still some stuff that are left in their boxes. i never got to opening them and sorting them. to top it off, we also have lots of leftover stuff from our wedding. i still have some gift boxes staked on the corner of the living room becos i haven't gotten a chance to clean them up. and even if i do have the time, there's simply no room to store them. @_@

not only a neat freak, i'm also frugal and super stingy. i hate throwing stuff away. so i keep on waiting and waiting for the next garage sale to happen so i can at least get some money from the stuff i don't want anymore.

guess what? summer came and gone, and no garage sale ever happened!! arghh!! and the stuff i don't want are still stacked underneath my dining table!! (yep that's where i hide stuff... under the tables ^_^).

since the new year is fast approaching, i made a new decision! it is time to clean up; it is time to throw away things that i don't want. it'll be hard to do this for my frugal mentality, but i need to make this place our "home" until we are ready to buy a house. it's time to plan for a DEMOLITION!

Tuesday, November 13, 2007

puff pastry!

i made the most gorgeous puff pastry dough in class yesterday. i was so proud of myself. my puff pastry dough usually always a little bit difficult to work with. the butter block usually leakes out of the dough; it resists when i roll it out; sticks on the table.... but not yesterday! it was just perfect! no leakage, no sticking... i was even able to lift it up and flip it when i was rolling it to do my turns.... oooh i'm soooo happy!!

today we'll be using that puff pastry dough to make another european dessert called phitiviers and a pear-frangipane tart. both of them are going to be very almond-y.

i'm more excited about wednesday class though... we'll be making strawberry-kiwi tart! i think that will suit my asian pallate better ^_^

Monday, November 12, 2007

long weekend

hubby and i spent the long weekend watching a japanese drama called hana yori dango. for those who doesn't know, hana yori dango is the japanese version of meteor garden. and for those who doesn't know meteor garden, it's a very famous chinese drama series originated from a japanese manga (comic book) that's also called hana yori dango... hehehehe

i think eventhough both series were originated from the same manga, the japanese and chinese have a very different way in portraying the characters. i like the japanese version of the female main character better (tsukushi makino) because she's more animated and more like the manga character. san chai (the chinese female character) is a bit boring and plain. as for the male characters however, i must admit that i like the chinese version better ^_^.

we spent the entire weekend (saturday and sunday!!) watching the series from the beginning to the ending... i think we even have added some words into our very limited japanese vocabulary... hahahhaa

Friday, October 26, 2007

2 years to go

as an employee of the UC, i have to have been working here for 5 years before i get "vested". basically, once i passed my 5th year anniversary, i'll be qualified to get pension from them.

i've only been working here for 3 years... so i still have 2 more years to go if i want to get my benefits...

2 more years! 0_o

can i survive here that long?

maybe if i close my ears and my eyes the days would go faster? perhaps? ugh... =_='

i do want the pension tho... especially with the growing living expenses in the bay area. UNLESS.... maybe i should move to another country! Canada or Australia sound very appealing to me... Australia especially, since they have universal health care...

Thursday, October 25, 2007

interesting morning reading

one of my daily rituals in the morning is to log in to my google reader and browse through blogs that i'm subscribed to. one of the blogs belong to an co-worker of mine.

on her latest post, she has a link to this site that listed the 6 most terrifying foods in the world.

i spent abt 10 minutes reading through it; the further i read the more my eyes squinted... hehehhe.... very interesting reading indeed. destroyed my appetite :-P

Sunday, October 14, 2007

practical final #2

i'll be taking the practical final test for the second section of the culinary school tomorrow. we'll have to make three items in 3 1/2 hours... a dozen of croissant, two loaves of breads in two different shapes, and a basque cake (some tea cake with pastry cream filling in the middle).

one of the things that they're actually testing us on is time management. they didn't specify which item we need to do first and in what order we're suppose to make them. that's all up to us to decide.

i'm still trying to figure out what i should do first. should i do the hardest one or the easiest one first?

hmm... 0_o

Tuesday, October 9, 2007


it's all done! horray!! hehehe

everything was perfect.... (with a few exceptions of course. ^_^ being as nitpicking as i am, i can always find faults in every little things. heheheheh)

however, all in all it was a great night. hubby and i had a blast. I think everything went really closed to what we had planned.

many times during the planning, i asked myself "why am i doing this again?". i mean, i have been married to him for three years and it almost seems like i'm doing this just to get the "big day" that i didn't get. everytime i mentioned to anybody that i'm doing a vows renewal after only three years, they always gave a puzzled look. but i get the answer to that question during the father/daughter dance. before that day, even though he knew that I'm married to a guy, he had never let go the responsibility of taking care of me. when he presented me to hubby that day, he let me go. he finally gave me away. i knew i would cry during the dance, but i didn't think i would cry that much. when he held me in his arms, i just cried immediately. when he hugged me so tightly, i felt so fortunate to have such a loving father like him. during the dance, i asked him if he's happy. and he said that my happiness is his happiness. as long as i am happy, then he is happy too. (even writing this makes me cry :-p).

the next day, we visited them again at my big bro's house. he pulled out a photo album with my baby pictures. he pointed to one of the pictures, and said to hubby, with his broken english: "this is my only daugther. i have taken a very good care of her all this time. now i'm giving that responsibility to you. you must take a good care of her. even better than what i have done".

but you know what, in my heart i have always been and will always be his little girl. doesn't matter who i am with or where i am at, there will always be a spot in my heart for him. everything that i am now is thanks to him. without his guidance, i will never be the person that i am today. i can only hope that hubby & i can be as good of a parent as my mom & dad are.

anyway... after that day, i just can't help feeling happy and thankful to everybody who has helped during the planning and on the day. i feel so fortunate to be surrounded by family and friends who are so loving & caring.

BUT .... now that everything is done, i have nothing else to do~!

we've opened our presents (thanks everybody for your generous gifts!!) and now we need to clean up....

but then what?

who's getting married next? can i volunteer my services? heheheh wedding cake/decor/cookies/anything?? call me *wink wink* ^_^

Friday, September 28, 2007

one more week to go

crap! only one more week to go!!! arghhhh.....

wow time really flies when you have lotsa things to do.

honestly, can't wait till all is over so i can enjoy a relaxing weekend and just nap... hahahahah

Tuesday, September 25, 2007

not a superwoman

work - 40hrs/wk
school (incl. practice baking, reading textbooks, typing recipe @ home) - 25hrs+/wk
sleeping - 5-6hrs/wk
wedding prep - the rest of the time available in the week.

my body is starting to protest. it's not liking the way i'm treating it.

oh well, i guess i'm not a superwoman ^_^

Friday, September 14, 2007


i am 26 years old today!


another year older, another year wiser, smarter, prettier, cuter, etc. etc. *yeah i think so highly of myself* hahaha just kidding!

anyway, i think this year has been the best bday so far. "why?" you might ask.

well it's becoz i actually didn't remember that it is my bday until the day before. and even then, i forgot about it again becos there's just so many other things going on. usually, i would remember my bday a few weeks in advance, and then i'd be sort of anticipating and waiting to see what my family and friends are gonna do to help celebrate my bday. this year... no expectation, no wondering around... nothing. and it is such a great joy to see that people actually do remember!

yesterday, i went out with some classmates to santana row. at first i was wondering why in the world do they really want to go to sur la table. but it turns out that lena had told them that it's my bday and they're treating me out for dinner. isn't that sweet?? ^_^

and then i got home, feelin' a bit tired. so around 11pm, i said to hubby that i'm gonna go to sleep. but then he said no, cuz my bros and sis-in-law are coming ^_^. they came at around midnite, brought a cake (it is really yummy. lil' bro got it from some fancy bakery in san rafael. darn it! i can't remember it's name, but he said that it's zagat rated and has been in the food network. i'm tellin' ya', it's a yummy cake! ^_^), and got me a GPS!! now i will never be lost again... muahahahha

anyway.... after that, it was phone calls, emails, text messages, etc. wishing me a happy bday!

what more could a girl want? ^_^

it's a happy birthday indeed.

Thursday, August 30, 2007


i can't believe that i'm about to say this... but 24 hours in a day is not enough! ^_^

i need more time. i have so many things going on in my current schedule that i feel like i have to time to stop and take a break. i haven't watched tv probably since the day i started school!

don't get me wrong, i really, REALLY, love my school. it's just that between school and work, i don't have any time left to do anything else. it's probably a good thing, since i used to always complain about not having anything to do... he he he.

Friday, August 24, 2007

dreams, goals, and knowing who you are

i attended a career service workshop at pci yesterday. as a student there, i am required to attend this 5-session workshop that supposedly will prepare us for the real world in the culinary industry.

yesterday's session was simply an intro to what we're gonna be doing in the next four sessions. the topic was "dreams, goals, and knowing who you are." Sydney, the career service representative, defined goals as "dreams with deadlines." you need to define a goal in order to make your dreams achievable. without deadlines, dreams might never be come true.

after you set your goals, you add mini-goals and milestones along the way. the ultimate goal by itself might be very overwhelming and seemingly impossible to achieve. but if you create mini-goals, it'll be easier to get to your destination. "milestone," from a project management point of view, is a critical point or stopping point where you evaluate the progress of your project. so at the end of every mini-goal, you set a milestone to evaluate your accomplishment, how to move forward and so on.

while setting your goal, you also need to know who you are in order to plan accordingly. you need to know the skills you already have, what you need to work on, how much practice you need, what's your limitation/restrictions, etc.

the assignment at the end of the day was basically to do some soul searching: finding out what your dreams are; setting up goals; self evaluating yourself; etc. i have actually done that before i signed up for the school. i found it interesting that some people actually attend the school, paying ~$200 per DAY, not knowing what they want to do afterwards. perhaps their parents are the ones making the payments... hehehehe...

for me, i know what my goal is and i have some ideas of what my mini-goals are gonna be. in general, my goal is to open a high-end custom wedding cake shop at an affordable price. i don't wanna sell wedding cakes that only celebrities and filthy rich people can purchase. i want couples, like myself and my hubby, who only have limited budgets, be able to purchase a delicious and gorgeous looking cake without paying a fortune.

how am i gonna accomplish that? it's a secret.... hahahahah truth is, i dunno yet. that's what i have to think about. i only have the first milestone, which is to graduate from culinary school.

one thing that she said that i can really relate to is that people are dream killers. when i said that i want to switch career and be a pastry chef, some people have replied with such negativity, saying things like "are you crazy? so many great bakers out there, how are you gonna compete?" or "you're going to be working so hard and not making much money".

but i guess i've dreamt about this long enough that those words didn't bring me down. they made me pause for a bit. but after all is said and done, the dream is still the same and i just have to at least try to achieve it. it doesn't matter whether i succeed or not.

at the end of the day, i don't wanna regret never trying the things that i wanna do.

Tuesday, August 21, 2007


my hubby has only been away for about two days, but it feels like he's been gone much longer than that. time moves slower when he's not around. but i think i'm starting to get used to it. the first two nights were kinda rough. it's just really weird not having him around. i get so used to his presence, even when we're not really doing anything together.

i've been keeping myself pretty occupied. went shopping with the gals on sunday, and then dinner afterwards with my bros. weekdays go by faster i think. mostly becos i am so busy with school and work, that i don't really get a chance to stop or pause; which is a good thing. some friends have also offered me to stay over with them *thank you friends who have offered me to stay over!!* but my lil'bro might stay over at my place starting on thursday, so he'll keep me company. if not, then i'll rotate from one house to another. hahaha i'll be a nomad.

i got to talk to my hubby on the phone yesterday. and that was nice ^_^

felt like we're back to when we were dating, and we can't see each other all the time. funny how just talking with him on the phone really made my day ^_^ *so cheesy, i know*

anyway, went to school yesterday. the session was very interesting. we decorated our first cake in the class: almond sponge cake. i was in such a rush pretty much the whole time. that is because i kinda ruined my cake last week. we made sponge cake and we were supposed to flip it after it cools. but i think i flipped mine a bit too soon that the moisture went back into the cake and made a soggy cake. so i had to re-do my cake yesterday. i was one step behind everybody else halfway through the session. i eventually kept up, but it was tiring!! we assembled the cake and i learned a really cook trick on how to torte a cake (splitting one into multiple layers). this trick is MUCH MUCH better than the way i used to do it.

overall, it was an enjoyable session. definitely kept my minds off things.

too bad hubby doesn't have internet connection at his hotel (there is, but he gotta pay). it would be nice if i can chat with him (cuz it's cheaper ^_~). 9 more days to go. can't wait!

damn this dependency issue!! :-P

Thursday, August 16, 2007

hello, world!

it's been a while since the last time i wrote in this blog.

i was gonna write about the last wedding cake i made for my dear friends, but unfortunately i'm not in the mood to write today. my hubby is going out of the country for a business trip this saturday, and i'm just feeling a bit sad. i know ... i have dependency issues... hehehhehe but this is the first time we'll be apart for an extended period of time. so i think it's normal for me to feel this way.

other than that, i've been busy with school and work and school and work. i love the school part. not so much for the work. ever since i started school, i've been so psyched about baking and decorating and working in the kitchen, that when i'm working, i don't feel excited anymore. even my body is not liking the fact that i'm sitting in front of the computer so much (it gets sore!)

i've also just created a new blog for my cake & dessert collection: check it out when u get a chance and drop off your comments! ^_^

Thursday, August 2, 2007

the last two weeks

... have been extremely busy!!!

i think i have never, ever been this busy. so many exciting things that i wanted to write in this blog, but i simply just didn't have the time.

school started two weeks ago. and because this is an accellerated program, everything happens so fast! i just took my first final exam yesterday, and i passed! i am now servsafe certified, meaning that i now can serve you clean and safe food that won't cause you any illness... hahahaha. the chef that thaught us this class, chef Steve Long, is one of the most amazing teacher i've ever had in my life. he turned a dull, boring subject into something interesting and fun. he used real life story and taught us about the importance of maintaining cleanliness in a food service establishment. he's simply amazing.

my routine for the past two weeks has been: wake up, work, eat, study, go to school, sleep, and repeat. i thought this'll be easy to do, but noooo... on top of this, i'm also getting ready for my friends' wedding cake. the wedding is in less than two weeks now (wow. time flies). so in my spare time, i'm busy making gumpaste flowers. i had forgotten how much work roses take. but i think i've made enought to put on a dummy cake that i'm planning to build this weekend. i feel bad to my friends because i haven't been able to present them with any display and/or tasting. all due to so many unexpected things that had happened. oh and the oven problem i wrote about earlier - not entirely the oven's fault. i feel so stupid here, but the problem is mostly due to an operator error. hehehe. yep, i didn't measure the ingredients properly. that's what happened when you make partial recipee and use your brain instead of a calculator. hehehehe.. so oven's working now, and that's good news. it's still not as accurate as an electric oven but at least i am able to bake some things now ^_^.

okay, that's it for now. remember, wash your hands frequently! ^_^

Monday, July 23, 2007

a baker's nightmare...

is to not have a working oven.


when i first moved into this apartment, i was sooo excited about the "new oven with a window". it was later that i found out that the new oven was also the cheapest oven in the market. at first i thought, oh well it's ok as long as it works. but guess what? it doesn't!!!

argh... such a frustration. however, i do learn a lot about gas oven and how to check an oven temperature properly....

so, unlike an electric oven, the temperature at a gas oven is not steady. it fluctuates a lot because the heat source is not on all the time. the gas burner will go on only until it reaches the desired heat, and then it'll automatically go off. it'll turn back on once it reaches a low point (i don't know what determines the low point). this fluctuation makes it really difficult to determine the correctness of the oven temperature.

and on top of that, it's also very important to make sure that the thermometer is accurate. and how to test it? here's the trick. a thermometer should show 212 F on a pot of boiling water. if it doesn't, then it needs to be calibrated. luckily, my thermometer was only 1-2 F off. so i didn't bother to calibrate it.

on top of the temperature fluctuations, another problem with a conventional gas oven is that heat rises and not distributed evenly. so when i baked cookies, the ones on the top rack got burned faster than the one on the bottom.

there's also what's called the "biscuit test". GE's troubleshooting site suggest doing this test to check the oven temperature. it says that if a can of premade biscuit dough can be baked within the suggested time period, that means the oven temperature is okay. i've done this test and the result was very vague. the biscuit was cooked. however, it was partially burned and partially not dark enough. and i think they are smaller than what they're supposed to be. and what does this indicate?? who knows?

i've tried baking three times, all failed. and the stuff i baked were foolproof recipes. i kept telling myself that maybe i'm just not familiar with this oven yet. but it's a dreadful thought that this oven might not be able to bake any cakes or cookies or pastries.

so i've been checking on craigslist, per my co-worker suggestion, for a used oven to purchase. trouble is, i need to somehow get rid of the one i have right now. and, there's also the transportation issue. this is, after all, a full size oven. how the heck are we gonna carry it all the way to this apartment (second floor with no elevator)? and, what if there's no electric connection in the kitchen?

garh... so many things to think about, so little time.

Thursday, July 12, 2007

run across iowa

my coworker just ran across iowa. i think that's truly amazing. he ran 306.9 miles and it took him 11 days to complete.

this proofs that you can truly accomplish what you set your mind to.

he was also interviewed by the local news:
(scroll down to "video on demand", click the drop down menu and choose "sport", "marathon man")

google reader

one of my friends suggested that i send weekly/monthly newsletter to people so they can read my posts without having to go to blogspot. unfortunately, i don't think blogspot come with that option and i actually don't want to bombard my friends' inbox with my constant update notification ^_^.

anyway, i then decided to try out the subscription options that blogspot offers. if you scroll down to the bottom of this page, there's an option to subscribe to this blog. and then you will get several subscription options. the first one, which is the simplest one, is to add a live bookmark using rss feeds. i didn't like it so much; it's a matter of personal preferences i guess. the one i like the most is actually google reader. it allows you to subscribe to various blogs/sites, and it retrieves new content as the blogs/sites get updated. it's really cool. if you already have a gmail account, you will immediately feel like home as the interface looks just the same.

Tuesday, July 10, 2007

moved again

we just moved to a new place. the old place (mission peaks a.k.a red hawk ranch) jacked up their rent and we're not willing to pay $1,431 for a one bedroom unit. so we decided to move to another apartment in the north side of fremont.

moving is not my favorite thing to do. but it was truly a reality check. it made me see how much JUNK we really have. when we're done packing everything and piled all the boxes together, the whole dining & living rooms were full. thankfully we didn't have to move all those junks ourselves. we decided to hire movers this time, and it was definitely the best way to spend $250! i am so thankful that we hired those movers. those two guys finished moving all of our stuff in three hours. it's very impressive especially since we're moving from a second floor unit to another second floor unit. no elevators! it would've taken us probably the whole day or maybe more, and a bunch of unhappy friends (hehehe).

we then spent the rest of sunday and monday cleaning up and transporting some stuff that the movers didn't take. there weren't a lot of stuff, but it took us way longer than the movers. that's the difference between professional movers and us... hehhehe.

anyway, we're done now. well not really.. .we still have to unpacked and arrange the new place. unlike the old place, the new place is really COLD! i can't imagine what it'll be like during winter :-(.

Friday, June 29, 2007

iPhone is out today

the iphone is out today at 6pm.

i sooooooooo want it.... i wantsss it ....
....but i'm not gonna get it.

ooh what a dilemma... i want it cuz it's apple, and it's nice, and it's purrteey, and it's shiny, but mostly because it's apple.

i don't want it cuz i don't wanna be one of the first to find the bugs, and i don't wanna wait in line for a phone *even though it is a "revolutionary phone"*, and i don't wanna sign a two-year contract with cingular.

oh well.. i guess i'll just have to wait and see... and be patient...

meanwhile, i'm going to once again admire the beautiful iphone on apple's website.

Wednesday, June 27, 2007

there's a sweet spot in everybody

i just announced my new work schedule to my colleagues. it's amazing how much support i get from people whenever they hear that i'm going to pursue an education in a culinary school. the responses always get more excited when they found out that i'm going to attend the baking and pastry arts program.

i guess there's always a sweettooth in everybody. even the most health conscious person cannot resist a chocolate chip cookies. this is a good thing, because there's more and more pastry chefs appearing all over the world.

anyway, i'm looking forward to the orientation this saturday. i'll finally get to see my student kit and uniform. ^_^ it's gonna be a busy weekend.

Tuesday, June 26, 2007

second introduction

originally i created this blog as a medium to rant and vent and pour everything that's going on inside my head. but now i'm finding that writing without audience is pretty dull. so i'm changing the purpose of this blog.

from now on, this blog is going to be mainly dedicated for my culinary life. of course every now and then i'm still going to write about personal stuff, but i will focus more on the culinary aspect of my life.

this blog will also serve as a media for my family & friends to keep in touch with me, or just to see what's going on with my life.

with this, i welcome all visitor.

thank you! come again... ^_^

Monday, June 25, 2007

being sick is a waste of time!

really hard to concentrate at work today. i'm still a bit light headed and coughing a lot. i think there's still some residue of nyquil that's trying to make me fall asleep. i had some coffee in the morning but that doesn't really help much :-(

ugh.. i hate being sick :-(.

anyway... i'm very looking forward to next saturday, june 30th. it's orientation day at PCI. i can't believe it... it's finally happening. the days are drawing closer and closer. soon i'll be a culinary student! yay!

hopefully i'll be able to handle the schedule of a part time student + full time worker bee. hehehe... i think i will. especially since this is something that i've been wanting to do for so long!

i'm excited! i can't wait! woohoo.... *cough cough* ~_~

Thursday, June 21, 2007


I was a bay tree
Quiet and unseen
I lived in stories but inside I kept a mystery
I was a starling
Nobody’s darling
Flying in perfect circles
Just for company

And now I’m ready
And now I’m ready
And now I’m ready to be

A midnight airplane
A window blowing
I know I am another sparkle in the sky
I shine on copper
Still undiscovered
But you must see me in the corner of your eye

And now I’m ready
And now I’m ready
And now I’m ready to be

Waking up to wake up some day
I am my own prey
Stopping off at a sidewalk cafe
The wind is playing in the trees
Kicking up confetti leaves
Sings as if it’s all to say

And now I’m ready
And now I’m ready
And now I’m ready to be

And now I’m ready
And now I’m ready
And now I’m ready to be


Wednesday, June 20, 2007

google index

my blog is now being indexed by google again!!

i don't know what i did, but i must've done something that add this blog back to google spider web (however that might work). just like i don't know how i un-indexed my page from google, i don't remember what i did that made it back to being indexed either... hahhahahaha

got cookies?

i do!

i'm in a cookies baking mood and i've been baking losta cookies lately.

i just never knew how easy it is to make cookies, espc. american cookies. baking a cake vs baking cookies are so different. there's so many steps involve in baking a cake. first you have to make the cake, then the filling, then the frosting, then you have to put them all together, decorate it and make it presentable. with cookies.... all you gotta do is just bake the cookies. doesn't take longer than 1.5 hours to prep, bake, and eat them.

they are super easy!

last week, i started with some oatmeal raisins cookies. they're good and healthy. perfect for breakfast.

then i made some chocolate chip cookies. they're so luscious, rich, chocolatey... especially when they just came out from the oven. unfortunately, they are a bit too rich and sweet. therefore, it is not a good idea to eat too much.

the best chocolate chip cookies recipee is from the nestle tools house. ;-)

google indexing

i think once upon a time i have done something to unindex my blog from google search engine.

don't remember what i did and how i did it, but now google search on my blog resulted in nothing. i wonder how i can undo that.

not that it really matters. i'm just curious.

Monday, June 4, 2007

confucius says

"Find a job you enjoy, and never work a day in your life."

And that, my friend, is my goal

Friday, June 1, 2007

microsoft surface computing

take a leap into the future: microsoft surface computing

i can just imagine getting one of these for my future bakery/cafe. so neat!

Thursday, May 31, 2007

starbucks' orange mocha

starbucks were giving samples of their new orange mocha.

lemme just say one word "interesting".

not good interesting, or bad interesting... just interesting. warm, orange flavored, chocolatey coffee... hmm... i simply cannot find a better word to describe it other than "interesting"

google maps - street view

check out google maps' new feature called "street view". this new feature allows user to virtually view the maps down to the street level, and check out the "neighborhood".

this is really neat cuz you can actually see the area before you even visit it. it'll be helpful for getting direction because it'll at least give you a mental image of what the destination looks like. instead of turning your head left and right while driving, you can just concentrate on finding the similar building or neighborhood that you've sorta seen before, online.

the tricky part is to keep it up-to-date. i mean construction happens almost all the time here. building changes. i wonder what google will do to make sure that their images are always up-to-date.

mm... google and apple... they never fail to amuse me.

Tuesday, May 29, 2007

priceless moment

hubby & i had a wedding to attend to on sunday. the ceremony was at noon, whereas the reception was in the evening. so we had time to spare in between the two. we had lunch in milbrae, then stopped by at the in-law's place to take a nap. unfortunately i had an allergy attack, so we then decided to just hang out at the mall.

as we walked around the mall, i saw a store that sells wedding/bridesmaids gown. we decided to stop by there. i took a couple of dresses to try on. first one was a strapless pink satin gown. pretty, but not so stunning. second one was a maroon color, also satin gown. the back is low, but not too low that you cannot wear a bra. it's gorgeous.

there were some kinds lounging around the waiting area. i think they're waiting for their relatives who were doing some fitting. as i stepped out of the dressing room with the maroon dress, they gasp! it was PRICELESS. one little girl was just standing right in front of me, looking directly right at me. she was literally speechless. the other girl who were sitting on the couch then said "you look so pretty!". ohh to get a reaction like that was just sooo priceless ^_^. they kept staring at me until i went back in to the fitting room.

i think they then walked around the store to find the gown that i was wearing, cuz as i was about to leave the store i saw them wandering around the rack where the dress was hung. they then said to me "the dress looks so beautiful on you".


Wednesday, May 23, 2007

Follow You Down

Follow You Down
by Gin Blossoms

Did you see the sky, I think it means that we've been lost
Maybe one less time is all we need
I can't really help it if my tongue's all tied in knots
Jumping off a bridge it's just the farthest that I've ever been

Anywhere you go I'll follow you down
Anyplace but those I know by heart
Anywhere you go I'll follow you down
I'll follow you down but not that far

I know we're headed somewhere, I can see how far we've come
But still I can't remember anything
Let's not do the wrong thing and I'll swear it might be fun
It's a long way down when all the knots we've tied have come undone

Anywhere you go I'll follow you down
Anyplace but those I know by heart
Anywhere you go I'll follow you down
I'll follow you down but not that far

How you gonna ever find your place
Running in an artificial pace
Are they gonna find us lying face down in the sand
So what the hell now we've already been forever damned

Anywhere you go I'll follow you down
Anyplace but those I know by heart
Anywhere you go I'll follow you down
I'll follow you down but not that far

Anywhere you go I'll follow you down
Anyplace but those I know by heart
Anywhere you go I'll follow you down
I'll follow you down but not that far (follow you down)

Follow you down but not that far (follow you down)
Follow you down but not that far (follow you down)

Monday, May 21, 2007

shrek the third

... is not as bad as what the reviews are saying. really! ^_^

i've always been a big fan of shrek. i think shrek is the only computer animated movie created by a company other than Pixar that i like. according to rotten tomatoes, this movie only got a 5.8/10. that's probably why i didn't have such high expectations when i went into the theater to watch it. but in the end, all of my friends and myself were very satisfied with it. we had a good laughs, and it was well worth the $10 we spent. i would recommend it!

mm... i'm trying to remember what else we did this past weekend. seems like the weekends always pass by so quickly and that we didn't get a lot of things done. whereas the weekdays on the other hand, always pass by so slowly ... like a snail.

oh! i remember! hubby & i went to kelly paper on saturday. we were looking for some materials for our wedding renewal stationary, and kelly paper was like a paper heaven! seriously! we walked in and greeted by the store attendant immediately. since we've already decided on the types of paper we need, we asked him if he can help us find them. that guy was a paper genius. he knows exactly what the names of the paper are and where they're located. and guess what ... cheap!!! that's the most important thing in my purchasing dictionary ... hehehe

anyway, we spent about $52 for all the materials, excluding the envelopes. and that's a good deal! the only reason why we didn't get the envelopes from that store was because the packages are huge. they only sell one package size that contains 250 envelopes. we only need 100 max, so in the end we would end up with 150 extra envelopes. what the heck are we gonna do with all the leftover envelopes? but after searching around at other stores, i have a feeling that we're gonna go back to kelly paper. it's the best value for the price. if we purchase it from other store, we might have to pay the same amount of money for less quantity.

and then on sunday we went to the city and met up with the cruise gang and some other friends. it was so much fun! we watched shrek and then had dinner at buca di beppo. our waiter ridiculously gave us the wrong bill. but whatever, it was cheaper than what we actually ordered, so i'm not complaining. we all paid $15 per person and it was for a lot of food! appetizer, dinner, and dessert. cool! mm... funny how i always have so much fun when i hang out with them. they're fun people. ^_^

Friday, May 18, 2007

inconsiderate people

there's a lot of inconsiderate people in this world. my upstair neighbor is one of them. i don't know what they're doing every freaking night. it sounded like they're moving furniture around or butchering some pigs. for whatever reason, they always start whatever they're doing after midnight. they usually keep it quiet until around that time... allowing us to fall asleep ... and then bam! right when i'm about to start dreaming and go into deep sleep.... they started making noises. GRRRR!!! last nite they continued doing whatever they're doing until freakin' 2am.

i am now so cranky even after having some coffee.

i'm definitely filing another complaint.

Thursday, May 10, 2007

spidey 3

** warning - spoiler. if you haven't watched spiderman 3 and are planning to watch it, don't read this post **

we watched spiderman 3 in imax theatre in SF yesterday. it was my first time watching in an imax theatre. i don't get what the fuss about the imax theatre is all about. i personally don't like it that much. other than a gigantic screen, nothing else is special. i think it's overrated. everything looked too big in my opinion. i don't care too much about seeing the tiniest zit on Tobey Maguire face. hehhehe. that's only my personal opinion of course.

about the movie itself, i think i would rate it a 3/5. the special effect was of course spectacular as one would anticipate. however, the story line itself was kinda sad. it's become so corny and cheesy. especially the parts with the US flag, the town people saying "ooh" and "aah", and the butler who decided at the very last moment to tell Harry the truth about his father. are you freaking kidding me?? coulda said that a lot earlier and save a lot of trouble, dude. but then again, if he does tell the truth sooner, then they won't be able to make spidey 3.

anyway, this movie is not all THAT bad... i mean, it is spiderman... the fighting scene was pretty awesome. and i like the end part where spidey and green goblin jr. teamed up and beat the heck out of the sand man and venom (altho i can't help but laughing at Topher cuz i kept thinking of eric from that 70's show). also evil Peter was kinda cute. heehehe

gosh i'm so drugged right now. just took an advil and my head is feeling so light and i kept pressing the wrong keyboard buttons. what's with that?? there must be tons of typos in this post....

Wednesday, May 2, 2007

missing a friend

i occasionally finding myself missing some of my old friends who are no longer living in the US. i think that's the downside of deciding to live in a foreign country. it's hard to maintain the same group of friends. i think i've gone through at least a dozen groups of friends during my stay here. i guess it's never gonna stop, becos people change and they move, and if i stay still they will eventually leave me.

sometimes i feel tired trying to make new friends over and over again. the sad thing is that most of the time, right when i feel like we've created a real connection, they have to move away.

but you know what, it doesn't really matter. especially if they're truly my friends, they will not forget me no matter where they are. long distance friendship is definitely not as good as close friendship. but it's still valuable.

i'm missing my ex-roommate right now ^_^. she's like a sister to me and i can't wait to see her again. hopefully sometime this year.

Sunday, April 29, 2007

nice weekend

this weekend has been a nice, productive weekend. i feel like i could use another day just to sleep in and relax. but then again, i could always use an extra day off anytime... ha ha ha

hubby and i were pretty active this weekend. we helped our friends on a martial arts tournament that they're hosting at their school on saturday. and then we also visited the in-laws. they seemed really happy that we came just to visit them. occasionally they complain that we don't visit them often enough. so stopping by at random occassions is a good idea. sunday was pretty laid back. just relaxed in the morning, and then our other friends called and invited us for dinner at their house. that was very impromptu, but turned out really nice and fun.

i started preparing our save-the-date card. trying to figure out what kind of glue works best to stick photo to a cardboard. i now know that UHU is not a good one to use. it made the paper warped once it dried out. maybe i'll just use double sided tape.

anyway, it's monday again. back in the office again. i just bought a new set of headphones, which works great because once i put it on, i really can't hear anything around me. that's a good thing cuz this way i can't be bothered by anything.

can't wait to go home. oh yeah, BART is free today due to the collapsed highway incident that happened over the weekend.

Friday, April 27, 2007


i am so GLAD it's friday! it's time to rejuvenate my mind, body, and soul ^_^.

nothing much planned for this weekend. i'm thinking of doing some baking. haven't done that for a while. but at the same time, i also want to go shopping. i need a new headphones for my computer & ipod. the one i have is starting to act up :-(.

our home computer just died yesterday. boohoo.. i guess it's time to buy a new one. and this time, hubby is open to the idea of getting a mac. so, i'm actually feeling a tiny bit happy that the windows died. hahaha i'm so bad. i'm thinking about getting the mac mini. i think that's sufficient for our home computer. the only bad thing is that the mini only comes with intel core duo. i wish it comes with the intel core 2 duo :-(. oh well.... u can't get everything, right?

oh and i also wanna buy michael buble's newest album "call me irresponsible". it's not out yet. the release date is may 1st. i can't wait! i'm listening to his online album right now. he's also doing some tour in the US next month. unfortunately nowhere near where i live. that's kind of a good thing. that way i won't be able to spend more money buying his tickets. but ohhh i so want to watch his concert again!! :-( i guess i just have to be satisfied with his cd... hehehe many things i wanna buy. if only i have all the money in the world... see, this is why i have to keep my job! hehehe

Wednesday, April 18, 2007

vacation highlights

okay... i think i'm finally ready to put the highlights of my vacation in writing. i got the cruise compasses right by me and all the pictures are up on my desktop. also have a cup of water ready by my side in case i get thirsty. i don't think i'll be hungry cuz i just had a gigantic sandwich ^_^.

so let's start with the who's and what-not.

the whole cruise was actually meant not only for a long-overdue-vacation, but also to serve as the last hurrah for our dear friends, Kiet & Chau. they are getting married in August and this trip was for their Bachelor/Bachelorette's partay. There were eight people total in the group, including me and hubby. All of crew, except for myself, met at UCD.

the cruise began on Easter Sunday, April 8, 2007, and ended on Sunday, April 14, 2007. the cruise line was the Royal Caribbean, and the ship we're on was called the "Vision of the Seas".

Day 1
we departed from SJ airport on the same flight with Kiet & Chau. we arrived early at LAX around 11:30am, but the first ones to arrive was Milly, followed by Joe. we then waited for our other two friends, Tony and Regina. we took the super shuttle to get from the airport to the port of LA. once we got to the port, we had to check in our luggage and get our seapass cards. after all the paperworks were done, we went in through security check. one funny thing that happened here was that the security lady asked me if i were an adult (her exact question, word by word, "excuse me, are you an adult?" - heck, yeah i am!!) heheheh...

anyway, the ship was pretty huge. it's not as big as i thought it'd be, but still... it's huge! first thing we did was check out our rooms (they called it "stateroom"). we designated our meeting place: the infamous BCC - stands for the Butt-Crack Corner (there's a painting of a naked lady playing a piano, and her whole naked back, including her butt-crack was exposed, hence the name "butt-crack corner"). the second thing we did was.... searched for food!! we quickly found the buffet section. they called it the Windjammer. tons of foods there... unlimited amount of smoked salmon and desserts. oh wait, before we went to the Windjammer, we purchased our soda package (yeah, soda's not included :( ).

the first day was all about exploration. we went from one end to the other, and from the top to the bottom. when the ship finally left the port, we were standing on the top of the ship, enjoying the scenery.

dinner was a sit down dinner, served in the Aquarius dining room. here we met our waitress, Suzette, and her assistant, Philip. dinner was the best time of the day. we got to enjoy unlimited fancy foods and desserts. we celebrated the first night with a bottle of champagne, courtesy of Tony and Regina. after dinner, we continued our exploration to the Viking Crown lounge. this lounge is basically the dance floor. we danced for a while, starting to feel a bit tired (well.. me at least). servers walked around the lounge with light snacks. we ended the day feeling exhausted, but excited to see what's coming ahead of us ^_^.

Day 2
day 2 was the first formal night. hubby and i woke up early, enjoyed some nice breakfast at the Windjammer, and then went to the Viking Crown lounge to see the scenery. this is when we stalked Kiet & Chau.. hehhe ..took some pics of them walking on the deck. we had lunch together with the rest of the gang, attended the ballroom dancing class, walked around, then headed to the indoor swimming pool. this is when i found out that i'm allergic to sea water >_<. i was so bummed!!! i had rashes all over my face. good thing it went away after i cleaned up. hubby and i decided to get back to our stateroom and rest. we got dressed up pretty early cuz we wanted to take some pics with the sunset. we met up at the butt-crack, and then headed to the deck. took some really nice pictures with the sunset. after that we took some formal pictures in the mid section of the ship. dinner was EXCELLENT. i had the best steak of my life. it was tender and juicy and tasty and yummy!!!! (ugh.. i'm drolling right now looking at the picture). dinner was taking quite a while. we were going to join the Karaoke Superstar, but we were late so by the time we got there there was no more room to sign up. i think we were also pretty tired so we called it a night to get ready for the next day.
Day 3

day 3 was Cabo San Lucas. the ship arrived at Cabo around 11am, but due to high water current, we weren't allowed to leave the ship. so we went to the poolside instead. it was very, very crowded and i wasn't a fan of suntanning. i was feeling pretty down :(. they finally let us go out at around noon. we had to take a smaller boat and tendered onto the port. however, due to the water condition, the excursion that we originally planned to go to (snorkeling and kayaking) was canceled.

it was pretty chaotic when we got to the shore cuz we didn't know what to do. but tony's been there before and he wanted to visit a restaurant called the Cabo Wabo. so we took the map and found our way to the Cabo Wabo. i can't believe that they let me guide them... those silly people, don't they know my lack of sense of direction??? i gotta say, we're very fortunate to arrive to the restaurant successfully.

i think this was where they started calling me little boy/girl. i got this hat from the shop-on-board store, and apparently when i put it on it made me looked like a little boy/girl ^_^ (waaaaa!). after lunch, we took a long walk that seemed like forever... hahah... we were trying to reach the beach... hahah ....didn't make it, ended up at a hagen d'az instead. good enuf for me.

got back to the ship feeling rather exhausted, but still excited! day three dinner was smart casual. i think this was when i tasted my first escargot ... it's yummy!!

the dining staff did a performance that night. all the waitress/waitresses got together on the staircase and sang a song. when the whole dining room was at peace and quiet, we yelled "we love you, Suzette!!!" to our waitress. after that... she fell in love with us... yeah, we're a bunch of irresistible crazy peeps! i ordered four desserts that night... couldn't help it! hahahaha

after dinner, we hung out for a while.. i think i got tired, so hubby and i went back to our stateroom and rest.

Day 4

Day 4 was Mazatlan! this was a very exciting day. our mission for the day was to find a beach. but first, we had to find a way to get to the beach. it's not within walking distance, so we had to take a cab. it's pretty difficult to get a ride for eight, so we ended up splitting into two groups. hubby and i went with Kiet and Chau, and had the ride of our lives!!! the taxi driver was like one you'll see in games like crazy taxi. he did not sign nor check the intersection before he turned, basically he just honked and accelerated all the way to the destination. phuih! good thing we got there in one piece. we had to walk a bit to get to the beach. it was such a nice day. the weather was gorgeous. we hung out by the beach, played in the water for a bit (i didn't stayed too long in the water cuz i didn't wanna get any more rashes). Kiet, Chau and Joe got some temporary tatooes (i think they're called hannah??... not sure). and then Joe, Kiet and hubby went parasailing. it was his first time parasailing and he took his camera with him to take some pics from the air. they're pretty neat!

here we also took some crazy, interesting jumping shots (not drinks, but pictures... we jumped and took pics of us in mid air). the results were pretty neat. especially the ones of regina and her bottle of beer ^_^.

i don't remember if we did anything that night. i think we were pretty tired and went back to our staterooms after dinner to get ready for the next day.

Day 5
Day 5 was the last port-of-call, Puerto Vallarta. Since our original excursion was canceled, we purchased another package (slightly more expensive one) for snorkeling, kayaking, and lounging at the beach on Marieta island. it turned out to be a great excursion, and worth every penny (although at the beginning i got a little sea sick on the boat because it was rocking so much). snorkeling and kayaking were fun!!! i almost didn't do the snorkeling because i was afraid that i would get rashes again. but i decided to at least give it a try for a few minutes, and i made the right decision!!! the water was cold and a bit murky, but ohhh .... it was exciting! i saw some very colorful fishes.... it was fun! and then we did the kayaking. it was fun too!!! we did the snorkeling and kayaking for about half an hour, and then the boat took us to a nice private beach. the water was so clear, but unfortunately the current was high so we didn't get to play in the water.

we got back, feeling a bit tired. but the day wasn't over yet. after cleaning up, we went back out. this time we got a cab big enough for eight, and a taxi driver who's not so crazy. he stayed with us the whole time, showing us different parts of Puerto Vallarta. he took us to the local neighborhood where we bargained for some souvenir, then to the touristy strip where we took pictures of the sunset, and last but not least, he took us to a churros vendor. Joe's been craving for some churros, and thanks to him, we tasted the best churros ever!!

after that, he dropped us off by the port. dinner for day 5 was a bbq by the poolside. again, great food! pretty darn tired that day, but definitely happy ^_^.

Day 6
Day 6 was the last formal night. it felt like the journey was coming to an end. kinda sad. we decided that after the long day at Puerto Vallarta, we deserved to get a good night sleep. so, no wake up calls, nothing. just sleep till whenever. i think hubby and i woke up around 10am/11am. grabbed some brunch, did some last minute shopping for souvenir, and then just enjoy the rest of the day relaxing. it felt so nice being pampered ^_^.

we then met up with the crew at the crack, all dressed up and ready to go. we took more formal pictures. dinner was again delicious. after dinner we went to Karaoke Superstar. with half a shot of tequila and a shot of something else that tony ordered for us, i was able to gather enuf confidence to went on the stage... and pretty much embarrassed myself... hahhaha sang "i do" with Milly, dedicated to Kiet & Chau. i ended it with tony's imfamous "this trip sux!! (i said rocks*) it is so awesome!! i love it so muchhh!!!". yeah.. i was pretty much wasted by the end of the song.

went to see a comedy show afterwards. i sadly don't remember any jokes whatsoever... yeah... went back to our stateroom after that. fell asleep immediately, woken up around 3am by an urge to pee.

Day 7
sad... day 7 was the last day. the vacation came and gone so fast! we spend the last day pretty much just lounging, hanging out, taking pictures, and trying to forget that by tomorrow, it's all going to be over. took the last pictures with the sunset, enjoyed the last dinner, took care of any discrepancies on our bills. before we knew it... the day was over.... so sad.

Day 8
the "Vision of the Seas" arrived in the port of LA around 7am. we had breakfast in the dining room. by this day, i was pretty much sick of smoked salmon and desserts (whhhaaattt?? yeah... it's possible). we then waited at the Masquerade theater for our tag colors to be called.

we got out around 11am. took a super shuttle to LAX. our flight was the first to leave LA. so we said goodbyes to Joe, Milly, Tony and Regina. the plane we had was a small jet. it only has three seats across. i don't like small plane... blah!

finally arrived back to SJ airport. said our goodbyes to our friends, Kiet and Chau, and went home. there's a feeling of emptiness when we got home. felt a bit loss... didn't know what to do, didn't know what to eat... hahahha. i guess we were having some post-vacation withdrawals.

Monday - @ home

still feeling a bit lost that day. woke up... walked around the kitchen searching for some food. hahahaha... that's sad!
did some laundry, got a massage.... missing our friends, missing the ship. looked at pictures, reminiscing...

Tuesday - back to work
it sucked!!!

well i guess that's the gist of it. like i said, no words can capture how awesome this vacation was ^_^. but lemme just say that this cruise wouldn't have been so great if it weren't for the people that went. cheers to all my friends. they are truly special people and i am so glad to have them in my life ^_^

Tuesday, April 17, 2007

the best vacation

i'm having major difficulties writing about the vacation i just had the past week. it was such a blast that i just don't think words can capture even the gist of it.

anyway, just to summarize... the vacation was fantabulous. i will elaborate more later. i think i'll need to use the pictures we took as a guidance to write about our activities on each day.

Saturday, April 7, 2007

this morning we had an appointment with the DJ that we're booking for our wedding. we met him at the Dublin Ranch Golf Course where we're having our nuptial. he seems like a nice and decent guy. we chatted for a while while waiting for the coordinator (she was meeting with another client). i was kinda nice because it gave us a chance to get to know each other. i think the chemistry was pretty solid :-). he seems like the type of guy who can fit in with any types of crowd and feel comfortable talking publicly. definitely an entertainer.

when the coordinator finally done with her meeting, we introduced them to one another. they talked about the arrangement, like where the dj's table is gonna be at and how to connect the speaker and all that stuff. at first, we felt some tension among them two. i was actually a bit worry that they're gonna have a quarrel. the coordinator seems to be a bit territorial, but i can definitely understand that. i mean, it is her venue and she probably doesn't like it when some guy out of nowhere try to tell her how to do stuff. but luckily they're professional and eventually able to settle their differences ^_^ *phuih*. on our way back home, i mentioned this to hubby and he totally agreed. he was feeling the tension at the beginning too... hahahaha

after we're done with the meeting, we went around a bit to take some pictures and getting the dimension of the reception room. this was only the second time i visited this place, and i still like it!! i think i actually like it even more. it's just so beautiful. i guess it's a good thing, huh?

we then went to stoneridge mall to grab a bite as we were starving. went to CPK ASAP . it's like a fast-serve version of CPK where you have to go to a counter to place your order. there's no waiters/waitresses. the server still bring your food out, but they don't take your order, bring you toast, or refill your water. all the plates are plastic instead of glass. the food is still the same, only a different way of service. it's kinda nice if you're in a hurry.

and then we went home and finished up with our packing. i think we're ready to go now. tomorrow morning, we're off to the airport.

Thursday, April 5, 2007

can a boy and a girl be "just" friends?

this is another thing that's been lingering in my mind. can it be done? can a girl meet a boy and think, "hey this guy is cool" and then be friends without any interest for a sexual/bfgf type of relationship?

uh.... i personally think that it CAN be done. but for some reasons, many guys that i know think that it cannot be done. silly! but it's true tho. there are also the guys' girlfriends who think that it cannot be done. they then "forbid" their bf's from becoming friends with me. so sad. i just wanna be friends..... >_<

it's a different story when both the guy and his gf are my friends. then there's no problem whatsoever. but sometimes i get close just with the guy, and the gf doesn't like it. this is the case most of the time, not only with guys that i just meet, but also with some guys that's been my friends for a while. some guys i know from high school that were pretty close to me are now vanished - disappeared into thin air. some of them actually told me that their "gf" said that they should not contact me anymore, or else. there's that "or else" part that scared the guys and made them decide that their gf's are more important than me. isn't that SAD?? it's not like we're living in the same country or anything. all we can do is chat or email one another. and i'm married!!! what are those girls so afraid of??

but now i always wonder if there's a guy, without a gf, trying to get to know me. do i always have to assume that he's hitting on me? or is there a possibility that they just wanna be friends? hhmm.... >thinking thinking<

mmm... i think i'm gonna stay to my believe that a boy and a girl can be friends without sexual interest. what can i say, i'm a friendly person... ^_^

from stranger to friendship

just a thought that's been hanging in my mind of a while:

isn't it weird that sometimes you meet new people and instantly you clicked? and on the other hand, sometimes you've known a person for a very long time, but no matter how hard you try, you just can't like that person 100%?

i wonder if there's a way to somehow change the way you feel about a person.

i like the first scenario. it's GREAT when you meet someone and you click. But i hate the second one. some people that i know are truly nice people, but for some reason our personalities just don't click very well. so i can only spend so much time with them. if i stay for too long, then i'll get annoyed and need a time out. and that just sucks! wonder if there's a way to overcome that...

some people think that first impression is very important. and that i should believe how i feel when i first meet a person, because if i sense something wrong then probably there is something wrong. but that's not always true. sometimes you need time to get to know a person, and once you get to know him/her you might be able to see their true self. i just hate it when that first impression lingers. but i don't know how to get rid of it. sigh.

Tuesday, April 3, 2007

Hyde - Shallow Sleep (English)

this is a great song. it gives me goosebumps.... thanks to my lil'bro for adding it to my iTunes. gotta get more j-pop music from him.

I just saw you
Beyond the course of time
A room that we once shared
But my memory's a haze
Forgetting what was said

I gently held out my hand
And in that perfect moment
You disappeared I lost you over again

In a shallow sleep I dreamt I was seeing you
Just how I remembered
Brimming with tenderness
And somewhere in the caim
A feeling that nothing had ever changed
Your presence close beside me till I wake

I just saw you
A moment far too brief
Before the daylight came
But my heart is beating fast
Perhaps we'll meet again

In a shallow sleep I dreamt I was seeing you
Just how I remembered
Brimming with tenderness
And somewhere in the calm
A feeling that nothing had ever changed
Your presence close beside me till I wake

I see you until I wake from shallow sleep

An artist without a brush
Can't paint upon the canvas
Without you here there is no colour
A colourless landscape

In a shallow sleep I dreamt I was seeing you
Just how I remembered
Brimming with tendrness
And somewhere in the calm
A feeling that nothing had ever changed
Your presence close beside me till I wake

I see you shallow sleep

Monday, April 2, 2007

you're not alone

there's this boy that i know. he's troubled and i wished i could help. he reminded me of myself, a long time ago. his problems might be very different than mine, but seeing him brought sadness to me. i was very fortunate because there were always family or friends who helped me along the way. they made sure that i didn't fall too deep and i owed them everything. i hope there're people there for him too. i wished i could help more. if i had known sooner, i would've.

i've got to say... people can hide their feelings very well. a smile on the face doesn't always mean happiness inside. it can be a cry for help, and only certain special people can see through the smile and know that it's only fake. others will only see what's on the outside, and not bother to care about the inside. those special people are very rare. and if you find one in your live, then you are one lucky person.

i spoke with my dad the other day, and he said that most "friends" are only befriended you because you have the same purpose for that particular time in life. it's sad to admit, but that's kinda true. you might call a person your "bff" (best friend forever) today, but once you become separated, your purposes differs and your journey together ends. i've seen this a lot going through college. sure i still keep in touch with some of them through emails and chat, but everthing is different now. somebody who's my bff seven years ago might not even know what i'm doing right now, where i live, or what my dreams and goals are. time and distance really make things change.

however, that doesn't mean that i don't have true friends. i do, and i oh-so-cherish them. i gotta admit that sometimes i take them for granted. i guess that's just to show that i'm only human. sometimes i just got so wrapped up around myself: my life, my troubles, my pain, my agony, my self image, me, me, me..... that i forgot that their lives don't revolve around mine. i forgot to say "how are you doing?". i forgot to call. i forgot to remember how important they are.

back to the boy. i believe that everybody is in my life for a reason. their presence is to teach me something; things that i should do or should not do. althought i can't help that boy, i now realize that i'm not the only one who's in pain. i'm not the only one with troubles. and i wanna help. i wanna help the way i've been helped before. it's time to stop worrying about being accepted by society, or about being better than others, or about fitting in. it's time to give a purpose to my presence in their lives.

Tuesday, March 27, 2007

next steps

everything is going along according to plan... hehehe ^_^

i just received a letter from the Director of Education at PCI today. yay!! the letter basically is saying that i've completed the admission process. so the next step would be to make another appointment with nancy to get the student kit, uniform, and choose payment plan. soon it'll be time to make payments.... yaikss!! hopefully we won't have to dig into our saving too soon....

i also had a meeting with my supervisor today. my proposal for telecommuting is getting close to get approved. she's ok-ed my proposal, so the next thing to do is to draft an actual agreement and submit it to her. she will then forward it to the director, assistant director, and deputy director for their comments and approvals.

yeah... everything seems to be coming together nicely ... hehehe

and in two weeks i'm gonna be on a cruise to mexico....yay!!

Monday, March 26, 2007

productive weekend

this past weekend had been a nice and productive weekend. it's not too busy that we ended up all tired and stuff, but it's not too laid back either.

on saturday, i went to PCI with my friend to take their math and english test, which is one of the requirements for admission. the test was pretty basic. each section was 20 minutes, without a break in between. first test was the english test. it started off very easy. typical standard grammatical questions, like "which of the following sentence is a complete sentance?". so i thought "hey this is pretty easy.' but as i flipped through the pages, the questions became more and more complex. many of them involved a story or a set of instruction that we used to answer the questions that follows. there were 50 questions that we need to complete in 20 minutes. the part that i had to struggle the most was the vocabulary. what the heck is "futile" or "rectify" anyway? ^_^

fu·tile adj
1. with no practical effect or useful result
2. lacking serious value, substance, or a sense of responsibility

rec·ti·fy vt
1. to put something right
2. to purify a substance, especially by distillation
3. to convert alternating current to direct current
4. to find the length of a curve

and then on to the math portion. after finishing the english portion, i knew that i should spend as little time as possible in each question as time is very limited. so i stormed through the first few questions, which were very easy (ex. 1/3 + 1/4). just like the english portion, the questions got tougher as i flipped through the pages. not super hard like calculus, but definitely require a pencil and a scratch paper. some of the questions involve multiplying or dividing decimal numbers with percentages. i got really dizzy by the time i finished all the questions. ^_^ boy, i'm so dependent on technology! i kept thinking to myself, "man, i should've played brain age more often!!"

anyway, all in all the tests weren't that difficult. they're just very time intensive, so i really had to keep an eye on my watch all the time. they gave us the results immediately. i scored 450/500 in both. not bad.. .considering that i haven't done that for years and i didn't practice at all. hehehehe....

after the test, we filled out some applications, agreement forms, and paid the $75 fee. according to nancy, everything will be reviewed by the director of education, and by next week we'll know whether we're approved for admission or not. Then we'll make another appointment where we can order our uniform and get our student supply kit. YAY! i am sooooo excited about this!!

after that, i went home, grabbed some lunch, and did our taxes. we're breaking even this year, we gotta pay for our federal tax, but we're getting some money back on the state tax. darn!! can't believe how much tax they're taking from us.... >_<

then on sunday we went to a bridal fair. this one is a fairly small one, hosted by the great bridal fair, at the fairmont in san jose. we only spent about a couple hours there. not much to see, but we did find a dj that we like. they did the music for the fashion show too. they're pretty funny so we're probably going to book them. hopefully they're still available for our date.

and now it's monday again, and i'm back in the office *blah!*. i have this gigantic fever blister in my mouth that is just KILLING me!!!! it hurts so bad that my check is swollen and my head hurts too. it's like getting my wisdom tooth taken out all over again!!! argh!

Thursday, March 8, 2007

Waiting for the World to Change by John Mayer

me and all my friends
we're all misunderstood
they say we stand for nothing and
there's no way we ever could
now we see everything that's going wrong
with the world and those who lead it
we just feel like we don't have the means
to rise above and beat it

so we keep waiting
waiting on the world to change
we keep on waiting
waiting on the world to change

it's hard to beat the system
when we're standing at a distance
so we keep waiting
waiting on the world to change
now if we had the power
to bring our neighbors home from war
they would have never missed a Christmas
no more ribbons on their door
and when you trust your television
[ these lyrics found on ]
what you get is what you got
cause when they own the information, oh
they can bend it all they want

that's why we're waiting
waiting on the world to change
we keep on waiting
waiting on the world to change

it's not that we don't care,
we just know that the fight ain't fair
so we keep on waiting
waiting on the world to change

and we're still waiting
waiting on the world to change
we keep on waiting waiting on the world to change
one day our generation
is gonna rule the population
so we keep on waiting
waiting on the world to change

we keep on waiting
waiting on the world to change

Somewhere Only We Know by Keane

I walked across an empty land
I knew the pathway like the back of my hand
I felt the earth beneath my feet
Sat by the river and it made me complete

Oh simple thing where have you gone
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin

I came across a fallen tree
I felt the branches of it looking at me
Is this the place we used to love?
Is this the place that I've been dreaming of?

Oh simple thing where have you gone
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin

And if you have a minute why don't we go
Talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
Somewhere only we know?


Oh simple thing where have you gone
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin

So if you have a minute why don't we go
Talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
So why don't we go

This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
Somewhere only we know?

The Riddle by Five for Fighting

There was a man back in '95
Whose heart ran out of summers
But before he died, I asked him

Wait, what's the sense in life
Come over me, Come over me

He said,

Son why you got to sing that tune
Catch a Dylan song or some eclipse of the moon
Let an angel swing and make you swoon
Then you will see... You will see

Then he said,

Here's a riddle for you
Find the Answer
There's a reason for the world
You and I...

Picked up my kid from school today

Did you learn anything cause in the world today
You can't live in a castle far away
Now talk to me, come talk to me

He said,

Dad I'm big but we're smaller than small
In the scheme of things, well we're nothing at all
Still every mother's child sings a lonely song
So play with me, come play with me

And Hey Dad
Here's a riddle for you
Find the Answer
There's a reason for the world
You and I...

I said,

Son for all I've told you
When you get right down to the
Reason for the world...
Who am I?

There are secrets that we still have left to find
There have been mysteries from the beginning of time
There are answers we're not wise enough to see

He said... You looking for a clue I Love You free...

The batter swings and the summer flies
As I look into my angel's eyes
A song plays on while the moon is hiding over me
Something comes over me

I guess we're big and I guess we're small
If you think about it man you know we got it all
Cause we're all we got on this bouncing ball
And I love you free
I love you freely

Here's a riddle for you
Find the Answer
There's a reason for the world
You and I...

How to Save a Live by The Fray

Step one you say we need to talk
He walks you say sit down it's just a talk
He smiles politely back at you
You stare politely right on through
Some sort of window to your right
As she goes left and you stay right
Between the lines of fear and blame
And you begin to wonder why you came

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

Let him know that you know best
Cause after all you do know best
Try to slip past his defense
Without granting innocence
Lay down a list of what is wrong
The things you've told him all along
And pray to God he hears you
And pray to God he hears you

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

As he begins to raise his voice
You lower yours and grant him one last choice
Drive until you lose the road
Or break with the ones you've followed
He will do one of two things
He will admit to everything
Or he'll say he's just not the same
And you'll begin to wonder why you came

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

How to save a life
How to save a life

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

How to save a life

Put Your Records On by Corinne Bailey Rae

I love, love, love this song...

Three little birds, sat on my window.
And they told me I don't need to worry.
Summer came like cinnamon
So sweet,
Little girls double-dutch on the concrete.

Maybe sometimes, we've got it wrong, but it's alright
The more things seem to change, the more they stay the same
Oh, don't you hesitate.

Girl, put your records on, tell me your favourite song
You go ahead, let your hair down
Sapphire and faded jeans, I hope you get your dreams,
Just go ahead, let your hair down.

You're gonna find yourself somewhere, somehow.

Blue as the sky, sunburnt and lonely,
Sipping tea in the bar by the roadside,
(just relax, just relax)
Don't you let those other boys fool you,
Got to love that afro hair do.

Maybe sometimes, we feel afraid, but it's alright
The more you stay the same, the more they seem to change.
Don't you think it's strange?

Girl, put your records on, tell me your favourite song
You go ahead, let your hair down
Sapphire and faded jeans, I hope you get your dreams,
Just go ahead, let your hair down.

You're gonna find yourself somewhere, somehow.

'Twas more than I could take, pity for pity's sake
Some nights kept me awake, I thought that I was stronger
When you gonna realise, that you don't even have to try any longer?
Do what you want to.

Girl, put your records on, tell me your favourite song
You go ahead, let your hair down
Sapphire and faded jeans, I hope you get your dreams,
Just go ahead, let your hair down.

Girl, put your records on, tell me your favourite song
You go ahead, let your hair down
Sapphire and faded jeans, I hope you get your dreams,
Just go ahead, let your hair down.

Oh, you're gonna find yourself somewhere, somehow

Tuesday, March 6, 2007


i heard on the news a few days/weeks ago that some people believe that technology makes people, especially teenagers, becoming more egocentric. the reporter said that according to some highly credentialed people (professors, researchers,etc), teenagers are becoming more self-centered due to online technology such as blogging, youtube, myspace, etc. myspace, for example, just based on the name implies that people nowadays want to have their own space to publish about their lives, their interest, their personality, etc. everything is about me - me - me.

then they concluded that people are no longer socializing, and not caring much about people around them anymore.

i disagree with that. i actually think it's the opposite. by sharing their lives in youtube or in blogs or onlike community, such as friendster or myspace, people are actually boardening up their network. sharing things that are personal is not always an easy thing. for me especially, these technology allows me to keep in touch with people from around the world. and this is a great thing!

just because people don't talk on the phone anymore, that doesn't mean that they're cutting down their social life. people are still socializing, but in a different way.

i know of some people who i think are very egocentric. and no, they don't have a blog, they don't use youtube, and they don't have a friendster or myspace account ^_^v

Friday, March 2, 2007

shaky shaky

another earthquake in the bay area happened yesterday evening. this time it was quite strong. according to the news, it was 4.2 magnitude coming from lafayette. it was pretty scary! my whole apartment was shaking, and it lasted for quite a while. previous ones only lasted for 1-5 seconds. this time felt much longer than that. long enough to make me hold on to hubby's arm tightly!

when it finally stopped, i was sooo happy and relieved. i don't know what to do if the big one really happens :-(. hide under the table? stand by the door frame? run outside?

afterwards, i mentioned to hubby that we should make a plan in case something bad really happens. plan that includes things such as where to meet if we're separated when the disaster happen, what to bring from our house, etc.

didn't really get a chance to talk about it much yesterday since it was getting late and i was pretty tired.

i'm at work now and i remember that my coworker once sent me a link to a site that talks abour disaster preparedness. Here's the site

UCOP also has a good site that covers a lot of information about disaster preparedness.

i really hope we would never have to go through any major natural disaster in our lifetime, but things are really hard to predict. so we gotta be prepared!!!!!

Thursday, March 1, 2007


my friend said that she's decided that she's gonna start culinary school in july with me! i'm so excited. it's really happening. ^_^

can't wait to make sugar flowers, chocolate confections, wedding cakes. woohoo!

everytime i think about this i always have a grin on my face. hee hee hee

Tuesday, February 27, 2007

breaking a habit

com·pet·i·tive adj
1. involving or decided by trying to do something better than others or win something
2. inclined toward wanting to do something better than others
3. more attractive than others because of being good value or worth more

yep, i'm a competitive little girl. it's one of the bad habits that i'm trying to break. i know that competition can be good sometimes. but i think i'm obsessed in trying to be better than others. and sometimes, i'm competitive in a matter that's not even a big deal.

in a way, it's almost like i have no self confidence. i need other people's acknowledgement in order to be assured that i am good and capable. and the satisfaction on winning is not everlasting either. there's always a higher mountain to climb. so after a while, the satisfaction just dissapear and i'm back to where i started from; questioning my own ability.

i think it started all way from my childhood. my mom is a stay at home mom. she's an excellent baker but has a hard time believing in that. kinda like me. however, i dont think that a habit can run down in a family. maybe it's learning from example; kinda like, becos i see it, i become like that? hmm... that's a possibility. but doesn't matter how it started, i have always been like this. i always tried to be better than my classmates. one time in junior high, a friend of mine who sat beside me got first place in the class grade, and i got second. i cried when i got home. another time in college, i didn't score an A, but got a B instead, and i cried again. looking back, i think it's so foolish. i mean, really, does it even matter now whether i got an A or a B? oh, better yet, when i was taking the wilton cake decorating course, i was so into being better than others in making my cake, that in the end my cake ended up being so crappy. and for what? a wilton class? that's so dumb!

but then again, it's easy to say that things are foolish, but when i'm in the middle of it, my emotion always overpowers my logical thinking. and this competitiveness has become like second nature to me. i don't even have to think it. it just immediately kicks in everytime i feel like somebody is doing something better than me.

i really have to somehow break this habit, because there will always be other people who are better than me. especially now that i am going to attend a culinary school, i have to be more open and be willing to accept that i am not perfect and it is ok to not be perfect. if not, i will waste all my energy just trying to beat others, which doesn't always translate that i'll the best. and in the end, it doesn't really matter if i become the best in the class, because there's a whole world out there, full of great chefs who i will not be able to beat - and i won't even try cuz i know my limit.

....i think the issue here is really not the competitiveness, but the self-conciousness

self-con·scious adj
1. feeling acutely and uncomfortably aware of failings and shortcomings when in the company of others and believing that others are noticing them too
2. highly conscious of the impression made on others and tending to act in a way that reinforces this impression

how am i gonna break that? mm.... have to think about this some more...

Monday, February 26, 2007

darn those sweet tarts!

my supervisor brought in a big bag of sweet tarts on valentine's day. since my office is full of health concious people, i'm the only one who dares to eat them. plus i do love sweet stuff. anyway, it is now almost the end of february. there's still a lot of sweet tarts left. and i can't stop myself from eating them. i think i eat AT LEAST three little packages per day. and now i feel bloated. i fell like i'm gaining weight, which is entirely possible seeing that those things only contains pure SUGAR!!!

darn it! how can i get rid of them? i need a better way to control myself. help......:(

Wednesday, February 21, 2007

professional culinary institute

i audited a class at PCI in campbell yesterday. oh it was so great. i was very excited.

i went there with a friend who's also interested in attending. i left work early and was able to catch the 3 o'clock bart train. i got to fremont pretty early, so i decided to just pick her up eventhough she lives in mountain view and picking her up would mean making a slight detour. got to her place, grabbed a direction from google, then headed on to campbell. we got there pretty early. first we had to fill out a form. then nancy (she's the director of admission ^_^) put us on chef's jackets. she didn't have any extra small ones. she only have one in small and one in medium. i wore the medium one. i had to roll the sleeves three or four times, but still made me feel like a chef (or .. a chef-wanna-be).

she then took us to this big kitchen, which is actually the classroom for the baking and pastry session. we were there before six so we got a chance to talk with the chef and some of the students. the first thing the students did was preparing for the ingredients. there's a term for that in french, but i couldn't remember (it sounded like plah-dah-pluah... eerr...something like that). then after all the studends were all set, the chef did a demo and showed the student how to do the items scheduled to do for that day. yesterday session included biscotti and some chocolate cookies.

everything was so hands-on. after the chef was done with the demo, the students then did the same thing in teams of two.

the only one thing that bugged me so much was the cleanliness factor. i had always seen on tv shows that cleanliness is one of the most important factors in culinary. and i, myself, am a very clean person. during the demo, the chef made some eggwash for the cookies. she cracked open the eggs, and instead of dumping the shells into the trash, she put in on the work table (!!!!). i was like "AGH! all the germs!!!!". then when she rolled the dough, she almost hit her textbook and she didn't even noticed that. man if it were my book, i would've been trippin'.

we only stayed until the demo was done. my friend wasn't feeling so well, and after the demo there's really nothing to see anyway. so we took off, chatted with nancy a bit more. she must think i'm crazy or stupid or both, cuz i asked her lots and lots of questions. but i always like to get everything covered before i get into anything. so i aksed her things like grading policy, attendance, what'll happen if i fail, what'll happen if i dont like the instructor, what'll happen if i need to take an extended absence. some of those things are very unlikely to happen, but there's always a 1% chance that the unexpected would happen and i just wanna make sure that they'll help resolved any issues that might come. from her responses, sounded like they're gonna be willing to assist us all the way till the end.

on our way home, we discussed about this again. my friend said that she doesn't see lots of technique and she's not so crazy about the chef either (my friend is also a very neat person). but after i got home, i thought about it some more, and i think eventhough she doesn't seem to be teaching tons of technique at that particular session, i'm sure there'll be plenty of things that i will learn. eventhough i can always search for recipes or instruction online and self-taught myself, the purpose of going to a culinary school is to get into the fast-lane and get all the infos right there and then.

so i think i am gonna go for it.

now the question that's still standing is: April or July?

Tuesday, February 20, 2007

Gong Xi Fat Choi!

i had a nice long-weekend. hubby and i had a dinner with my aunt and her family on saturday. yummy food! my uncle cooked lotsa food. i was sitting on the "kids" table and there were only five of us sitting there. there were probable - most likely - more than ten dishes, and they were all so delicious. we didn't know where to start. but we tried our best, yet still ended up with lots of leftover. i took home a bunch of stuff, so that'll save me from having to cook for at least a couple of days.

and then on sunday, we had another dinner, but this time with my friends. we went to cafe won kee at milpitas. the reservation was at 7 pm and surprisingly people were arriving pretty much on a timely manner. we had lotsa food. hubby and another friend have a hobby in photography. so it kinda felt like we had two paparazzis on the table. this hobby is kinda new for hubby, and he just got his SLR camera recently. since he got this new camera, i often time find him missing from the crowd. he would just go wonder off by himself looking for things to take pictures of. after dinner, we then went to a karaoke place in santa clara. we were waiting for an available room, and hubby wondered off by himself again. funny that it turned out that there were two girls kinda hitting on him. they were asking him to join them in their karaoke room. i came to the rescue and dragged him away... HA HA HA. it was a fun night. the girls definitely butcher a lot of songs, especially the hip hop with rap ones. asian chick really can't rap. he he he.

monday was just a relaxing, restful day. hubby & i were originally thinking of doing something romantic. but we're pretty broke from the night before and couldn't come up with any ideas on what romantic thing we should do. so we just stayed home. watched fearless (i think it's pretty good). and then later the day, i baked some cake. the recipe was from cakecentral. its' the one that people are all raving about. turns out that there's a good reason why everybody are so crazy about it. it uses cake mix, so it's very easy to make. took less than 15 minutes to prepare all the ingredients, and then i just need to mix it all together. bake it, and voila! the result was a tasty, airy, yummy white cake. it really doesn't taste like boxed cake at all, which was pleasantly surprising. i'll definitely add this to my recipe collection.

so now i'm back to work. but i wont be here for the whole day. i'm leaving early cuz i have an appointment at PCI to audit a class. i am SO NERVOUS!!! it's not like i'm gonna be tested or anything, but i feel butterflies in my tummy. mmm... maybe it's just the excitement of finally taking the first step in this.

Friday, February 16, 2007

sugar high

okayy... i think i'm sugar-high. i just ate a package of willy wonka fun dip. it was too much. i'm like floating in air now. bad, bad, bad idea. but definitely tasted good tho. @_@

friday - at last!

ohhh it's finally friday!! and we get a three-day weekend. ohh i can't wait till today is over.

not too much plans for the long weekend. it's chinese new year too, so hubby and i will be spending some time with the family. not his family cuz they're on some cruise vacation, but with mine. ahhh.. my uncle's gonna make some delicious cooking. i am actually looking forward for this family dinner, just cuz i haven't had a decent home-cooked chinese cooking for a while now. hehehhe

so far, nothing's planned for monday. but on tuesday, i've made an appointment with this lady at PCI to audit a class. i'm so excited! my friend is going to come as well. i'll need to leave early so i can have enough time to get some food first, and then drive over to campbell. maybe i'll leave around 2 or 3 o'clock. hopefully my boss is ok with that.

i think i'm gonna start in July. i've been going back and forth about this. i really want to start as soon as possible, but if i start in april, then i'll be missing the first week. and that would be such a waste!! the first week is my chance to get to know people, it's also probably the orientation week. and if i miss that, i don't know how much i will actually be missing. so perhaps july would be better. eventhough it's gonna be really close to the day i have to make a castle wedding cake, i think i'll manage. i'll just spend the months before july to practice real hard. i think i can do it. i just don't have a set mental image of the castle cake that i want to make. many of the pictures i've seen looked like a little girl's bday cakes. they're fun, but don't look elegant enough for a wedding. but then again, the bride is a very cutsy girl. her favourite cartoon characters are kiki and lala. so maybe a fun, colorful castle cake would be ok for her.

ah... we'll see. first i gotta give them a sample of my cakes. i just got a recipe online yesterday for a mix boxed & scratch cake. everybody was ranting in the forum about how great that cake is. i'm gonna try it out this weekend. it'll be great if it's really as good as what the people are saying.

Tuesday, February 13, 2007

project driven

i think i'm a project-driven person. i need goals and i need to feel like there's a destination that i need to reach. it always brings so much joy at the end when i've successfully completed a goal. and i always learn a lot of new things everytime i take on a project.

that's why i think cake decorating/wedding cake might be the perfect job for me. every cake is like a project; the completion would be the goal. there's always planning involve when it comes to wedding cake, or any cake as a matter-of-fact. and although it's nerve-wrecking the day before the event, when the cake is finally up on the cake table, and everybody's taking pictures and they all say "wow you made that??" - it's just making me feel so good about myself. its like getting a shot of endorphin. good feeling all over. ( hehehe i'm writing as if i've made lots of wedding cake - i've only done one).

my next cake project would be a castle cake for a friend of mine. i've been thinking about it a lot and i think i can do it. but i know that as the date get closer i'm gonna be more and more nervous about it. hopefully its gonna be another success.