Tuesday, May 31, 2011

To Hell and Back

First off, I have to say that I applaud my parents for raising me with so much love, care and tenderness. They did it so well that for my whole life... I have never been badly hurt.

This year, I have officially been through hell and back. Yes, I made it back. I wouldn't have written here if I haven't made it back :-).

The beauty of love is that, just like yin and yang, there are two sides of love. Love comes with ethereal happiness. And along with that, it also brings the possibility of excruciating pain that cannot be explained in words. I have experienced both sides of love.

As I stated at the beginning of this blog, I have not experienced much pain in my life. So needless to say, the past few months were the most painful time of my life. But guess what? The sayings are true. Time does heal. Surprisingly, and thankfully, time heals. There were times when I thought that everything was over. Done with. I was falling so deep that I did not even know if I could ever make it back up. I've never felt so alone.

Thankfully I was surrounded by very loving and supporting family and friends. Somehow I was able to pick up the pieces. With this experience, I realized that I was never whole as a person. I still haven't quite figured out who I am really.

So now, following the theme of this blog, I'm going to rediscover myself, "one step at a time".

The good, the bad, and the ugly. Whatever they might be :-).