It’s Thanksgiving. It’s that time of year where you reflect upon your life and give thanks to those who make a difference in your life.
It’s crazy how much my life has changed this past year. Around the same time last year, I was busily making holiday pies with my coworkers and enjoying dinners and get together with my family and friends. Oblivious. It was so simple and peaceful. It was just one year ago.
And now I’m here. No turkey this year. And I’m not baking any pies. But I’ve eaten plenty of good food. I’ve seen more beauties in this world these past few months than I have ever did before. I’ve become friends with people who truly cares about me, who helped me go through difficult times that I didn’t think I could go through. I’m surrounded by family who I know loves me.
I don’t know if I’ve become a better person by now… or more mature… or maybe I’m still the same old me. I’m still trying to figure that out. I’m finding myself changing. I’m liking things I didn’t use to care so much for… like shopping, and using make up, and pampering myself. I don’t know if that’s who I truly am or if I’m just going toward the general direction that society is pushing me toward. Maybe I was just so blinded that I forgot to become myself. I used to always think in terms of “us”, never of “me”. I was always afraid of hurting others that I let others hurt me. I always thought of the future, that I forgot to enjoy my present. Maybe this is who I truly am... No. I think this is who I truly am. I’m still confused most of the time. I still get lost A LOT. I’m still afraid. I don’t think I’ll ever stop asking “why”. But I’m always hopeful. One step at a time. Just like the title of my old blog.
So this year, I’m giving thanks to all of you who have been there for me…thru thick and thin. I love you all. Enjoy your turkey and stuffing and the pies, and always, always be thankful for what you have. Life live to the fullest and never regrets.
And to end this post, here’s a quote from a movie I saw on my flight back from Hong Kong. It’s actually a chick flick so it’s kinda cheesy, but it really hit the spot ;-).
“Girls are told a lot of stuff growing up. If a guy punches you, he likes you. Never try to trim your own bangs, and someday… you’ll meet a wonderful guy and get your very own happy ending.
Every movie we see, every story we’re told, implores us to wait for it. The third act twist, the unexpected declaration of love, the exception to the rule. But sometimes we are so focused on finding our happy ending, we don’t learn to read the signs…How to tell between the one that wants us from the ones who don’t …The ones who’ll stay from the ones who’ll leave.
And maybe, this happy ending doesn’t include a wonderful guy. Maybe it’s you… on your own. Picking up the pieces and starting over. Freeing yourself up for something better in the future.
Maybe the happy ending is just…moving on.
Or maybe, the happy ending is this…knowing that through all the unreturned calls and the broken heart, through all the blunders and misread signals, through all the pains and embarrassment… You never… ever… gave up hope.”
–He’s Just Not That Into You.