Wednesday, June 4, 2014

a second chance

If you get to do it again, would your reaction change?  Would you behave any differently if you get a second chance in life?

- The only ways to learn life lessons is thru experience.
- Your attitude determines the outcome of all events.
- In the end, everything will always work out.

The question is… what's the point then?

I know that running away never solves anything.  Everything happens for a reason, right?

But how do you stay graceful at difficult moments when your patience is just being challenge on all directions?

How am I supposed to be happy and positive when I'm surrounded by negativities?  Things happened and I tried my best to react in the most calm manner.  But I do recognize bullshit when I see one. And it is agonizing when I feel the need to protect other people's feeling at the mercy of my own.  It gets exhausting.

And I do get tired.  Emotionally and physically.

I am still grateful though.  Grateful for the love I have in my life.  For friends and family who I know I can rely on.

Shame on you liars and haters.

If I get a second chance, I would still do the same thing.  It's just who I am and I can't be who I am not.

I am not a liar or a hater.

Life trials my character.  Questions my integrity.

"I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did,  but people will never forget how you made them feel." -Maya Angelou.

Sunday, April 13, 2014

fast forward/rewind

No such convenience in real life.  No fast forward, no rewind.

Tho it's quite amazing, looking back, at how -absolutely, without a doubt- how fascinating life is.

So many lessons to be learned.  So many people to be met.  So many opportunities, good, bad, and everything in between.  But the a few things I now truly believe in is that:

Let go, and all will get done.

Your perception will create your reality.

Believe that all will be okay, and they all will be okay.

About two years ago, I posted this.  Thanks to some glitch on my feed burner, I stumbled upon it again.        Took me a while, but I think I finally learned to let go.  You never know what's gonna happen until you let things go.

Rewind to two years ago,  who would've known that I could be the way I am right now.

Fast forward to the future, who knows what life is going to bring next... :).

Sunday, January 19, 2014


It is so easy to get lost.

Physical action.

All diluted.  Yet separated. Pulled apart to many different directions.

Run, run, run.
Ah..  the adrenaline rush from all the excitements.
But where am I running to?  What am I running for?  Why... am. I. always. running?

I ran till I hit a wall.

I ran till everything feels like it's falling apart.  Chaos.  Mis-aligned.

The soul forgotten.

Heart hurts.

From despair comes seeking.  When you seek, sometimes the universe sends answers.

From a vacation that didn't go through, to a coworker that suddenly got sick, to a possibility of a weekend gateway, to an unexpected trip, to an unexpected place, doing... what uncannily the essence of my being: yoga, dance, meditation.  All in the openness of nature and all its beauty.

The stars are aligned once more.  I met one of the most inspiring people in my life.  One who taught me how to dance.  To truly dance and embrace the uniqueness of simply. being. me.

With the moon shining brightly on one side, its reflection shimmering against the open ocean, the sun rising gently on another side, the pinkish-bluish-sky, the warm hot spring water against my skin, once again I felt bliss.

Pausing. Being in the present.

Saturday, January 18, 2014

dancing diamonds

That's what I called the sparkles of the sun's reflections in the water.
Natures beauty that cannot be captured by anything else but one's own eyes.

Today, I danced.
I danced like I've never danced before.
I let go of the self control, the self awareness, and just let the body DANCE.

The movements came so naturally.
The body became the extension of the heart.
Extending the arms. The legs.  Sliding forward. Backward. Ups. Downs. Spiraling. Adjusting each movements with my surroundings. Yet at the same time maintaining my own identity.

Today I finally truly danced like nobody is watching.

And it was oh... so... FUN!